Why do I even bother?



3 days ago with 0 notes Reblog 

I’m so goddamn happy right now.

But all I want to do is fucking lay down and cry.

I don’t understand.

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1 week ago with 0 notes Reblog 

Fuck

I can’t breathe

I can’t hadnelt his anymoer

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



2 weeks ago with 0 notes Reblog 

I don’t even know what to do anymore.

It’s so fucking hard.

Just trying to keep my emotions in check.

But I have to.

I don’t want to fuck things up…

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



2 weeks ago with 0 notes Reblog 

God I just.

I want him.

So badly.

But I’m so afraid of trying to push past being just friends.

And I fucking hate it.

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3 weeks ago with 0 notes Reblog 

And don’t even get me started.

On what my heart is doing right now.

Because I don’t even know.

God.

I thought I was pretty much over the crush on Leo.

But nope.

It’s still there.

450 times stronger than before.

And I am just so terrified of fucking things up with him.

That I don’t even want to bother trying.

But I can’t handle keeping it to myself anymore…

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



3 weeks ago with 0 notes Reblog 

Ugh…

I really, really.

Want to hurt myself right now.

But I’m trying really hard to resist.

Because I don’t want to disappoint anybody.

But fuck.

It’s really hard…

And I kind of really just want to break down and sob.

But my dad is home and I don’t want to worry him.

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



3 weeks ago with 0 notes Reblog 

God I just.

I have no idea what to do anymore.

I can’t keep going like this.

Everything hurts.

And I can’t do anything to help anybody.

And just.

Being in this fucking town isn’t helping anything at all.

And I just want to go home.

And forget about everything for a few days.

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



1 month ago with 0 notes Reblog 

I’ve only ever seen this person yell at people…

I have very rarely, if ever, actually saw them upset like this.

And it hurts.

Because I can’t do anything to help them…

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



1 month ago with 0 notes Reblog 

I just hurt myself for the first time in almost a month…

I wish I hadn’t…

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  



1 month ago with 0 notes Reblog 

Also.

I don’t know if it really qualifies as food.

But all I’ve been eating lately is pizza and chips.

And all I’ve really been drinking is soda.

I know it’s not healthy at all. And I’ve been wanting to try to eat healthier.

But like.

I ordered a chicken caeser salad from a pizza place earlier.

And they didn’t give me the fucking chicken. So I called and told them at like 12:30AM and they said someone would be right over.

Well. It’s almost fucking 8AM and I still have no goddamn chicken.

I’m so pissed I don’t even want to eat the salad anymore.

So it’s just fucking sitting in the fridge right now…

Ugh…

I probably won’t actually eat anything today…

tagged as: Shut up Kenny;;  

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